Mind Map

Im using this song again.

Last Christmas, last year, was a good year. really.

This year, almost everything seemed disappointing. The happy moments. If i were to recall now, I think I can only think of Photog camp 2009 and the sleepover at Trina's house watching Back to the Future, and Lord of the rings. Oh and singing 'Wine Red' with wenyun. Those moments.

These 2 months, I've been pushing too hard.

I kept living in my dream of last year in these 2 months.
And only realized that i have to wake up as the target is just too far to reach, it's not reachable from where I am now.

The process of waking up was so hard.

So much tears shed.
Tears couldnt stop.

I had the feeling of a kid who just found out that Santa doesnt exist.

I shall say just let it exist in my heart.
Something to look forward to.
Maybe I will be able to catch glimpse of it in this strange community,
I never give up trying to catch its shadow.

Well,
as i've always been like this,
I never give up, unless i died or sth.

But dont worry,
I'll finish my job with a BANG.
I'm still who i am.
Wont lose myself too much.

And dont worry,
I'm grateful and feel lucky enough that at least I get to feel the joy and the happiness with that group last year.

I shan't be greedy.

Must learn how to enjoy little and endure alot.

'Last Christmas,
I gave you my heart,
but the very next day,
you gave it away.
This year,
to save me from tears,
I'll give it to someone special.'

No wait.

This new group is special too.
Though it may not be what i expected it to be,
there are still good people,
there are still good friends that I've met,
new lessons that I've learnt.

Everything has sth to learn from,
some little takeaways.

And I'll learn to appreciate them,
and still.

Never regret.

That's my principle.

我和我的倔強.