Mind Map

There are some scenes and words that stay in my head and refuse to go away.

It still can't get out of my head,
the words you spoke that hurt me the most.

The cut is too deep.

(though im not too sure if I've caused it myself or perhaps i was just trying to put the blame somewhere. horrible character.)

Even till now you still have the sarcasm tone,
even Sno said that it was stupid of me to not to be able to interpret your words.

I think I did understand, it's just that, this thing that i wanted was so strong.
If you were to ask me why,
I think I can't(don't dare to) reply.

(Sometimes I may be forcing too hard)

I didn't(still don't) want to admit that,
Im shifting my priorities.

Im still wondering if it's a wrong decision that I'd made.
I'm so scared that I will regret someday.
I cant stand the questionings,
trying to avoid,
trying to find excuses, which dont stand,
and totally fall apart when you stated that, 'you had a choice in the first place, you chose it'

Right to the point till im wordless.

Even though im feeling very bad,
but I'm still unwilling to let go.

The question is why.
I dont know, it's just a feeling so strong i can't resist.

Why am i doing this?

I always wish that i can have a 瀟灑(dashing?) character,
do things with less regrets and just go straight on with what i feel that i want to do without this much of hesitations and struggles here and there.

(it totally stuck me when i heard that "trust me, you know" [this is from a different context, but it's the same feeling]
yes, I do know which do i feel stronger towards.
but because it's a 'feel' i dont dare to cling on to it too hardly,
'cause i never believe in illogical stuffs.) 

Watched the Devil wears Prada today in Geog option.
Can't forget the scene when Nigel told Andrea
"that's when you start to do well in your work."

It kind of ring a bell somewhere.

I guess i may become work-obsessed one day too.