Mind Map

Im getting messy. Very very.

Messed up table,

messed up documents,

messedup moods,

messed up feelings,

messed up schedules.

I hate it when i thought of you saying: you and your plans.

That sarcasm. I couldnt stand.
No it's that right-to-the-point,
that totally took the breath out of me.

As my blog dies slowly,
Im dying too.

Too much things.
I need a good planner, that works.

So much frustration,
so much fear,
so much random thoughts.

(please, not be regrets)

I tried to fix an image from my memory to be that fixed one to cheer me up.
But why?
The scene that appeared in my mind is confusing too.

You were walking beside me but i cant recall if i looked into you face,
or did i just imagine it?
Your voice, the way you walk, the way you smiled, the way you swayed,
and the way you walked away, sped up, till i could no longer see you.

Why am i remembering these?

I found myself with a sheepish smile.

Perhaps im a confusing subject to talk with in the first place.