Mind Map

My busy time is here again.

For many times, i've come by my blog and felt that I want to blog, but didnt do so because I didnt want to further delay my sleeping time.

Now I've found a new way of recording down my thoughts and store it somewhere. I usually do it in the few minutes before I turn in. (i did them while lying on my bed. So it's more like the few minutes before i fall asleep. Ooops.=P)

So i shall type them all out as the updates for this week. (:

1.
How should I go about doing it?
So many open ended questions,
and im supposed to look for the answers by myself.
But i've forgotten what I dreamt of.
Where are they?
They seemed to be blurred.
I've always believed that I need to be able to visualize what I'm wishing for to be able to succeed,
because I need to be clear of where's my destination.
But I don't seem to see it.
When I see the road signs, I don't know which way to turn to.
Is it hidden somewhere? or....gone? (I hope not)

Oh no. I dont know.

2.
I can't stop imagining how it would be like if it goes well.
But my instinct is telling me that it will just end in the way like how the other cases ended in the past.
'Do not let it drag too long.'

It reminded me of many things.
yeah, many things in the past that I had dragged on for so long they they're out of shape,
then thrown away.

trashed.

3.
I don't want to play this game anymore. So tired so disheartening.
How?

My most commonly used word.

4.
I need my vibrancy to be back with me.
Where has it gone to?
I miss it terribly.
That insane hyper me who seek for adventures in life.

Please come back to me.

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OMG. after reading them I find myself super emo before sleep everyday.
ohno.

Maybe that's why my sleepy quality isnt good? =/