Mind Map

Once again.
VERY EMO POST.

I totally do not understand myself at this area. I'm noob and slow.
I do not know what am i feeling and what is it about and why do I feel certain things.

It's the hardest things to understand,
at least for me.

And i had been trying my best to avoid it,
as I had enough of the aftermaths, the insecured feeling.
I just do not have enough courage to trust like that fully.

Maybe I had anesthetized too much that i think I do not know what's the true feeling,
nor can i understand what am i feeling.

Or maybe the nerve there to feel for it had been damaged.
It's having disorder now.

I've been preventing myself from falling, walking gingerly.

Today, I was told that i trip and fall easily.

But I still dont understand.
How am i supposed to ask then?

Please dont be too nice to me.
Do not let me misunderstand.
You make me want to run away.