Mind Map

Emo post.

Of course there is a reason for why do I always stay alone.
Or at least that's the reason that I'm blaming for.

Staying alone doesnt require thinking,
I do not have to care about there's another person with me,
I do not have to think for her/him,
I dont think much for myself.
(oh i'm so damn lazy)

oh why? I never feel that I'm sociable.

Just like in the cartoons, there's like an angel and devil form of myself on each side arguing for me now.

One trying to save myself from this emoness,
the other trying to push myself in further.

I'm not sociable.
Not many people take note of me.
I'm not humourous,
i'm not good at words.
I maybe selfish.

And I have this bad thing about thinking the whole world hate me and things like that.
I have the thing about thinking some people hate me for some reasons.

Oh am I not sociable?
I can get to know people easily, I'm not scared of strangers.
and i thought I'm high and helpful usually.

Strangers.
I can still remember that i was very shy when I was younger,
I would hide behind my mum when we meet strangers.
I've forgotten what has changed me to become so open now.

Alright.
Maybe I am able to know people superficially,
but I think I can't handle relationship with people to a greater depth.

I do not know how should I react.

Is there a way to learn?

But wouldnt that be unnatural?
I thought it would be better to present myself in the most truthful to the others.

And havent I been doing that all along?

And, I dont think I will want to change the way I am who I am.

Change for the better?
I just want it natural.

At least i'm not antisocial.
I like to talk to people. (gahh talkative!)
I appreciate all who befriend with me.

lala. end of emo post. end of emoness. (: