Mind Map

Finally realized the reason behind this.

I'm trying to know myself too.

I've been slacking more than i should.
I thought I did it because I wanted to be relaxed.
But what's the point of relaxig just for a short while,
knowing that I'll be much more tired out later?

I know these, but i kept on doing the wrong thing.

What was with me?

Now then i found out,
I was just trying to get myself a 'life' that is defined by the others,
trying to find space when i do things just for myself.
That's probably moments where i show my selfishness.

Suddenly, i felt clear in mind then.

And i went back to work.

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Never really had good impression of her.

But it was her who put in laughter back into me.
Freed me from the endless sorrow and frustrations that i've gotten for myself.

I just kept falling,
feeling worse and worse.

It will happen again and again, till I tire out.

And i hope that that moment will never come.
Actually i never thought of that would ever happen,
till recently.

I should get rid of that thought,
then i can walk around with lighter weight.

If not, it would just be symptons of me falling soon.

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I should walk with a brighter picture in my head,
i'll never be able to achieve anything if I see no future for what i'm doing.

I need a vision.

Yeah, he was right.

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I realized that,
I have relatively high expectations for quite some things.

How should I learn to let go of some?
And learn to be just satisfied with what I have?

Give me more time to think about it.